Where do I begin. I am not quite sure, all I know is that I have gained way too much weight. After the holidays and being around so many people and looking back at pictures of when I was at my thinnest, I realized that there is nothing that should be keeping me from being there again. I just need the will power and I feel like I have it. I have decided to weigh in on Mondays but I am still going to write up my blog on Wednesdays.
I weighed myself this past Monday and was pretty ashamed at my weight. 239.4.....woah.
It laid heavily on my heart as I looked down at the number. It really clicked then, that things have gotten out of control.
While on my computer and cleaning up files I found one about my weight loss journey a year and half ago and it had me as low as 193. Which means I gained 46 pounds in a year a half. How is that even possible I ask myself, but I can't reflect on that. All I can think about is doing my hardest at not ever getting back to this place again.
When I have gained and lost weight in the past it has always been something where I would eat one really fatty meal from Chick Fil A or McDonalds and then squeeze in a lean cuisine for lunch or dinner. As long as everything fit into my calorie count then I was ok. I would even work out to earn more calories to eat like a reward and would use every calorie available. Looking back I now realize that is why I have not been able to keep off the weight, my lifestyle has not really changed at all.
That's what I am ready to do though. Try different foods, make sure I am eating 3 solid meals and 2 hearty snacks as well and exercising. For the last two days I have done fantastic, I still have the occasional piece of chocolate but it's just or two pieces instead of the entire bar or 2 or 3. I am keeping fruit in my purse and my water bottle in tow to make sure that any time I get hungry that I have a good choice right at my fingertips instead of getting a KitKat at the store.
So here's to a new year and a new beginning.
Jenny
I know exactly what you mean, I have been right where you are now, having lost weigh and then put it back on.
ReplyDeleteBut you can do this!
I totally understand where you are coming from. Focusing on changing your eating is the best place to start! You can do this!
ReplyDeleteI'm right there with you girl... it's so daunting having so much to lose but we need to take it one week at a time, one day at a time, one healthy meal and one workout at a time. We CAN do it, we just need to make better decisions than we've done in the past. I believe in you!
ReplyDeleteMy starting weight was pretty close to yours (228), so I know how it feels. It sounds like you know what you need to do in order to make real and lasting changes-- good luck this week!
ReplyDeleteThe hardest step is the first one! You can do this! You've done it before, and now you have the right mindset I think! Best of luck to your in your journey!
ReplyDeleteI have been where you are, realizing that things have gotten out of control.
ReplyDeleteIt is a new year and it is time for a new start. You can do this!
I find I do better when I track everything.
Thanks for linking up with us! I cannot wait to follow your journey :)
The first time I lost weight was because I became a nanny and walked EVERYWHERE while pushing a very heavy double stroller. I still ate like crap, but I was burning so many calories that that didn't matter. It wasn't until I moved back to my home state and gained 30 pounds (like a 2 x 4 to the ego!) back that I realized that eating healthy really did matter!
ReplyDeleteYou're going to do great! It really is a mindset change and even if you have a cheat meal or a slip up, just hop back on the wagon. :)
Beep Beep. You get that from your Daddy. The holidays were good to me as well. Not to fret, my roommate and I are one week into our program. Actually it is 7 days for me and the yuckiness is now over. We are both in the same boat. Press on like I am and let's see how we do.
ReplyDeleteLove ya,
Daddy